Well, it’s that time of the year again. It’s the end of the summer, and the fall semester is drawing nigh. Usually, I’m very excited for the start of a new year. During this time, I normally wake up every morning counting down the days of the summer. I do this because I’m pumped that I’m about to embark on another epic school year. This summer has been entirely different.
Now that I’ve reached my senior year, the excitement has been replaced with anxiety. Every conversation I have with everyone from fellow interns to friends to family are all the same. Everyone asks me:
What are your plans after Morehouse?
What are your long term goals?
Where’s your girlfriend?
Where do you want to live post-college?
As I get asked these questions, I don’t know what the answers are or should be. To be quite honest, I have no clue what the future holds. I think because I’m viewed as “successful” or “having it all together” that people expect me to have all the answers but I don’t. I’ve discovered that no matter how much success one experiences, there will always be questions that they do not have the answer to.
After coming to the realization that I should probably do some thinking about my future, recently I’ve felt overwhelmed. I keep thinking maybe I’m losing my touch, or that I’m slacking in some capacity. Sometimes I compare myself to others who know exactly what they want to do and how they’ll get there. The stress of these thoughts really bugged me. I’ve been asking myself,
Why do I have to know what I’m going to do?
When thinking over my past experiences, triumphs and successes none of it was planned. When I wanted to go to Morehouse, that decision came to me my last semester of high school. When I decided I wanted to write a book, that whole idea came to me one day in the living room then I went and did it. I did not plan to do any of those things months and years in advance. All of my biggest and most proud moments came to me in the spur of the moment. The question I’ve wrestled with when reflecting on these experiences is;
Well, how did I succeed with no plan?
I know for sure that I was able to have these successful moments because of three things.
-I allow myself to be open to hearing the desires of my heart.
-I focus on doing my best in the present moment.
– I have faith that everything will work out.
These three points have allowed me to keep progressing even without a plan. So yes, I have no idea what I’m doing after graduation, I don’t know when I’m getting married or where I’ll be living, but I do know that whatever I’ll be doing I’ll be okay.
I’ve come to the conclusion that I can’t pressure myself into trying to plan the next move. I can’t get so caught up in what everyone else wants for me that I can’t hear the voice inside myself telling me what to do next. I think not having a plan has worked out for me just fine.
To all my readers and friends reading this who’ve been feeling the pressure of senior year, just relax. It’s GOING to be okay. If I know anything for sure I know that sometimes having no plan IS the master plan. We all have an inner instinct or intuition that is constantly speaking to us telling us what to do. That voice may be telling you to do something challenging or go somewhere uncharted, but just do it. If you can’t hear that voice inside yourself:
AND TRY. Your intuition will never lead you wrong.
As I say this to you, I remind myself that it’s okay to not know the next step. It’s okay to figure it out as you go. We have the power within ourselves to do great work, but we just have to be open to doing so.
So if you don’t have a plan, that’s alright. I’m with you. We both will go into this fall trying to figure it all out. I promise we both will be okay! We deserve it!